I'm walking in front of my shoes

A while ago, I talked to one of my old friends from high school. We talked about Didi Goftam and Told Ya weblogs as well. He told me that most of the time I write something in my weblog that is really the conclusion of an argument I've been thinking about for a long time, maybe even years, without saying where all these crappy ideas come from! He concluded that writing this way is not necessarily as efficient as thinking this way, meaning that I confuse many of the readers by bringing up issues that look like simple ideas but they are in fact very complicated.

He is right. I've noticed that people around me easily judge me based on something that I've said here instead of what my original intention could be: making them think. For example, if I say "My dead friend was lying on the bed and I was freaking out" I really don't appreciate people jumping in by saying "Don't you know dead people are dead?! And there is no heaven and hell?" and other comments of this type. Instead, I would like to hear something like this: "What is this feeling (freaking out) and what is happening in the brain when we feel like this?" What some people don't realize is that I'm way past the phase in which I was questioning heaven, hell, death and this sort of stuff. But I'm never past questioning everything around me, including the non-existence of heaven, hell, or the concept of sole and immortality.

On Nov 17, I wrote a weblog entry titled "I believe...". In fact, "I believe" now that nobody so far has understood what the real reason I wrote that post was. Nobody wanted to enjoy reading a smart reasoning (or jargon, whatever you want to call it) in somebody's weblog and enjoy thinking about it for a while, no matter how right or wrong it might look like. Please don't tell me if God exists or not, if I'm going through a mid-life crisis, or if I'm following those people who are advocating the intelligent design theory (*). THIS IS NOT THE POINT! The point is for all of us to think for a minute, or a second, or for the holy cow's sake, for a fraction of second! By thinking and thinking, we are able to keep our brain active and prevent a total brain malfunction that will eventually make a radical religious person or a radical atheist out of us. "God" here is not an issue, our untrained and dysfunctional brain is going to be, and when it comes to it, it doesn't matter if that dysfunctional brain is sending signals through the religious neural networks or the atheist ones. It's going to be a screwed up signal anyways!

Quote: Believe those who are seeking the truth. Doubt those who find it. Andre Gide (1869 - 1951)

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(*) for your information, Intelligent Design has nothing to do with what I wrote in the "I believe..." weblog entry. Intelligent Design is an attempt to create a theory out of creationism to be able to teach it in public schools and in fact it is the "creationism" itself and there is no scientific side to it. It's just wrapped in a pseudo-theory shell.

Family Business

Did you know that president George W. Bush and Playboy founder Hugh Hefner are cousins?

Beardist

Me: I'm not racist but I really don't like people with typical religious "beards"...
Him: Then you are just a "beardist"!

Minimum wage

I like T-mobile a lot but their return credit policies suck. I just spent 1 hour and 45 minutes talking to 3 people in T-mobile customer service and customer care trying to get $10.30 credit from them for a mistake they made on my account. That puts my gross income at $5.88 per hour, which is barely above $5.15 Federal minimum wage.

I guess It's OK but I would get really upset it I was getting paid less than the minimum wage!

I believe...

Nowadays in the US it's hard to find someone that does not believe in God. According to several surveys, around 89 percent of people believe in God and only 6 to 9 percent call themselves atheist or agnostic. But really, does God exist?

As part of the curriculum for X-ray based Imaging, I have been studying a bit of physics for the past couple of years. There has been some stuff that when I think about, I get goose-bumps! For example, everybody knows that Carbon at least looks very different from Oxygen, but what really makes them different is the number of protons and nothing else. The protons are the same, it's just "the number". When you look deeper, the protons, neutrons, electrons, positrons, neutrinos, and other basic particles probably have the same relationship with each other: they might be consisted of the same "thing" with different numbers. What is the dark matter then? Is it a "void" or "full" of that "thing"? or maybe some "sub-thing" material? What is material anyway? How about some form of concentrated energy as Einstein puts it. So is everything made of energy? Then what is energy? Can it be the "God"? In that case, it perfectly make sense to think that God is "everywhere", and "it" has created everything in the world. But what is the "world"? Is it boundary-less or does it have boundaries? If it's boundary-less, so is the "world" the same as "God"? Now here comes another question, if God is what we are made of (the absolute energy) then why do we need to "pray to God"? Does praying to God mean to add more energy to the biological system we know as "ourselves"? Is the source of energy unlimited? or we are removing some energy from the "world" and selfishly concentrating it in our own "bodies"? Is that why we as humans can sometimes do extraordinary stuff when we believe in and pray to "God"? Just because we simply have more concentrated energy?

I believe that ... well I don't believe in anything! I just keep asking questions until I die.

The Best Kid's Movie of the Year

I watched "Flushed Away" movie with my kids today. It's a must see movie. It's very artistic, entertaining and funny! Don't miss it!

Microsoft Zune

Should we say goodbye to iPod phenomenon? Microsoft Zune is out.